I'm Scared Of You

Let me preface this post by saying that this is not about anyone specific. I'm just putting words together that I know fit other people. I tend to write about what I see in others.
Also, it's not a song or poem. So...it's not gonna rhyme. lol...


I'm Scared Of You

The Bogeyman.
The name alone has struck fear into children for many years. But what makes the bogeyman scary? Is it the whole "dark ominous figure" thing? I don't think so. I think it's the fact that this 'thing' knows exactly what it takes to scare you. That it's so close to you and knows you so well that it knows exactly what to do to hurt you.

But if that's the case, than the bogeyman doesn't just scare children. It scares adults as well. But we know it by a different name...
Love.
I mean, what is love other than showing someone everything they need to know to hurt you? ...And hoping that they don't.

That's where I stand right now. I'm scared to love you. I'm scared to show you who I really am. I'm scared for you to love me back because I'm scared of the thought of me hurting you.
Quite frankly... I'm scared of you.
I'm scared because I know that if I give myself a chance to love you... I will. And it will probably be a stronger love than I've ever known.
So what do I do? Do I open myself up to the chance of being hurt? Which, in turn, could open me up to the chance of experiencing a love better than I could have ever imagined. Or do I continue to hold you at bay; at a distance?
Honestly, I don't know. Right now all I know is that you have the potential to be the bogeyman.
And I'm scared.
I'm scared of you.


Live, love & learn!
-The King

New year, new outlook, and one word... "Yes"

Ok, so I haven't written in my actual blog in a long time. So here goes...

The new year is upon us. 2008 was very productive but went by in a flash.
So here it is... 2009. So much to look forward to.
Most importantly: President Obama! This man is going to change the nation. As long as no idiot tries to, in lieu of the real word, 'stop' him. (You know what what I mean.) I have faith though.
...But I digress.

Now to more personal issues. I kind of have a new mantra in life for this new year. It's really bringing some happiness into my life. And anyone who really knows me knows that my most frequented emotional state is one of borderline depression. And most of the time I don't even know why.
But that's all changing with this new outlook on life.

Sidenote: Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? I really do. Even something as minuscule as going to the movies.

Which brings me to my point. The first movie that I saw in the new year was "Yes Man". Now, to most, this may be just another over the top, slightly overacting, Jim Carey comedy. But I found something beyond that in this film. The general concept of the movie was to not let life pass you by and to not be afraid to say yes to the opportunities that life provides you. Not everyone left that theater realizing the deeper meaning of the movie. But it really stood out to me.

And that's what I plan to do in the new year. I am refusing to have any regrets in 2009. I refuse to say, "I wonder what would have happened if I would have...". Basically, I'm removing "What if I...", and "If only I had...", and every other synonymous phrase from my vocabulary. Instead, I'm going for those things that I never thought I would.
And you know what...it's working! I've never had so many things go my way in one week's time. It's amazing what can happen when you put more of a positive vibe out into the world. It really does come back.

So I would definitely recommend that everyone spend this year doing a little more living. No regrets!


Live, love & learn!
-The King

P.S.
I will do my best to get back to keeping this blog updated.