Thanks For Your Consideration

I'm far removed from the days where I would visualize that we could ever be more than we were. The thoughts that we could one day be synonymous to each other. That point where someone looking for me would be equivalent to someone looking for you. You know those couples. The ones that are so cute they annoy everyone else. I used to want that for us. And we had our shot. But it's like we never loaded the chamber.

I'm not quite sure what held us back. Were we worried about losing the friendship? Did I appear to come off to strong? Or were you just too scared of the bogeyman?

Hmm...

Whatever the case may be, we moved past it. Almost instantaneously. It was like the brief moments of possible romantic grandeur were blown away with nothing more than a wisp of wind.

But that's ok. Really. I have found complacence in our far from subtle flirtatious friendship. I'm flattered when people ask me, "Why don't you just date her?". Because that's when I get to say, "Well, it's complicated." And with a smile, I laugh it off. I've always been happy as long as you were.

I want you to know that I love you. And not that 'Oh my god, we're such good friends' kind of love. But also not that 'Will you marry me' kind of love either.
No, the love I feel for you is that undefined uncategorized type of love that you can only feel for someone that will forever live in your heart.

But now my role has changed. I am here to help you filter through every guy that wants to be the one in your life. I'll admit, I have mixed feelings as I watch you go through the motions with someone that isn't me.
No one can really match up to me, right? That's what I tell myself.
But that's neither here nor there. Because I know that you deserve the best. And the fact that, even in one moment, you thought that it could be me, I'm grateful.

So, even though I seemingly am not the right man for you... Thank you for your consideration.


Live, love & learn!
-The King