Working For Change

Most people that know me would say that I'm a nice guy. I genuinely care about people's feelings and do what I can to keep everyone close to me happy. I'm naturally chivalrous and known for off the cuff compliments. I believe that success alone is not truly success. That a truly successful person brings those they love with them and helps them to be the same.

On paper, these qualities shape me up to be quite the eligible young gentleman.

But there is a side to me that I am reluctant to say is there. A subconscious side that seeps its way into my life in slight yet quantitative increments.

Do you know those people that always look upset even when they're happy? Now picture someone that often sounds callous even when they are being kind.

I have a tendency to be very blunt and quite curt. Backed by sharp eyes and cutting words, I tend to lash out in conversation. The disheartening part about it is that I am usually unaware of these actions. I am left after most interactions wondering why my motives are often misunderstood. Why is it that my good intent can be so misconstrued by so many?

But that's just it. They can't all be wrong, can they? The only common denominator in all of these situations is myself. And all of the observing opinions seem to match up.

So it is me.
What am I doing?
Why am I doing this?
Why is there a mental guard up around me?
Is it even a mental guard?

I honestly do not know.
But I do know that it's there and I am doing what I can to ameliorate the situation.

I want to be the best me that I can be. And, as of now, I am stifled by what can only be characterized as a 'character flaw'. There is a long reflective road ahead of me. But I am ready to start the somber trek. The first step is recognition.

Don't be afraid to look within yourself to make improvements around you.


Live, love & learn!
-The King